The Journey Begins

That night I called both my mentors and told them the situation. Sheila immediately guided me to a career consultant that she knew personally. I called her the next day and made an appointment to see her. The journey had begun. I fully expected the career consultant to tell me to keep my job since I have little education past a high school diploma and the economy being what it is did I actually stand a chance of getting a job even half as good as the one I am currently doing. Then God began to move. I heard a song on the radio on K-Love it is called The Motions by Matthew West. It goes like this: This might hurt, it's not safe, but I know that I've gotta make a change. I don't care if I break at least I'll be feeling something, cause just ok is not enough. Help me fight through the nothingness of life. I don't wanna go through the motions, I don't wanna go one more day, without your all consuming passion inside of me. I don't wanna spend my whole life asking WHAT IF I HAD GIVEN EVERYTHING? Instead of going through the motions. No regrets, not this time, I'm gonna let my heart defeat my mind. Let your love make me whole. I think I'm finally feeling something. Take me all the way. Take me all the way.
That song spoke volumes to me. In my eyes it was God speaking directly to me. I had felt those emotions a lot over the past 20 years. That I was only going through the motions to bring home a paycheck.