Friday, January 29, 2010

And life goes on.

Wow, has it been less than two months since I last blogged. So much has happened since then.
Where do I begin. Christmas came and went pretty uneventful but the new year came in with a bang and hasn't stopped. I felt like 2010 was going to be a good year for me. I knew it would a hard one but I had no idea just how hard it would get. Six days into the new year my boss calls me into his office one evening and unexpectedly fired me. I sure didn't see that coming. No warnings, no write ups, no nothing. He told me I was not where he thought I should be after six months of employment and mentioned a minor incidence that I had with the office manager. Which, might I add he never addressed with me. Never ask what happened or anything. I realize I had made some mistakes but thought that was all part of learning a new job. Obviously, I was wrong. Considering the amount of training I had received, I thought I was doing pretty well. But that is now water under the bridge. God has used that for His glory in more ways then one. So after being fired I thought I would head to texas and see my son and then go to fla. for a few days and visit a girlfriend I had reconnected with online. I went to Tx. and had a good visit with my son, his girlfriend and my ex-husband. Then headed to fla. to visit a girlfriend. About 8 1/2 hours into the drive, I ran a red light and hit a pick up truck. Totalling my 2009 corolla xrs. I loved that little car. But even through this I see God's hand at work in many different ways. I walked away from the accident with two cracked ribs and some bruises. The cop told me he did not know how I managed to maintain control of that car. I told him it was a God thing. He then proceeded to show me the route my car had taken. I had went into the median and left tracks in the mud. I was trying to miss the pickup truck and did not see the pole I was headed toward. About a foot from the pole my car made a hard right turn missing that pole by about a foot. All I remember is the initial impact and then the airbag deflating. I certainly don't remember having my hands on the wheel during the impact. The song Carrie Underwood sings, Jesus take the wheel has a very real and personal meaning to me now.
God's hand at work, I was about an hour away from a friends house when all this happened. He came and got me and helped me get my things and helped me the next couple of days to get things in order so that I could head back home. Needless to say I never did make it to fla. My entire goal was to go to the beach and spend time on the beach with God. I have always felt closest to God when I was on the beach. And what better time to go then now. Wow, if I had only known. But God has a much better plan than me. I laid in bed the next several nights asking God to show me whatever it was He wanted me to get out of this. When you ask that of God, He will show you.
First and foremost, He wanted me to go back to my previous employer and make up. I had intended to, really I did. But just not this soon. Obviously, God had other plans. He is a chiropractor so I made an appointment and went in to see him. We hugged and all is well now.
The second thing God laid on my heart about this whole thing was that I always had a habit of going 9 miles an hour over the speed limit. I wasn't at the time of the wreck thank heavens but had been throughout the trip periodically. Funny, God convicted me of this before I left on the trip but I still chose to be disobedient. A friend had sent me a clip of her son-in-law preaching a message about what sin do you think is ok. Then he proceeds to talk about a state trooper who once told him the nine is fine, ten your mine rule. I got the message the hard way. No more speeding for me. Also, I loved my car. I was very proud of it. God said, maybe a little too proud. Wow! When He teaches us a lesson He makes it stick. So now I am in the market for a car. I have decided to buy a used one. And save as much of the money I received from insurance as possible. The insurance gave me a more than fair settlement for the car. I was very pleased. Another God thing.
I am currently considering my options. I think I want to look at becoming an optician. I have talked to a friend who was an optician and she has given me a name of a friend to contact about doing an internship and what all is involved. I am very excited about doing something different. I think it will be a lot of fun. God has so, turned my life completely around. And even upside down at times. But through it all He has provided for me in a very abundant manner. There are so many more ways in which He has blessed my life from these two horrific experiences. But I have chosen not to post them all. But trust me when God says He has a plan for you and you start seeking that plan for your life, He will meet you there. And He will take you on the most fantastic ride you have ever been on in your life. He never ceases to amaze me with His generosity and goodness. He truly does love me (and you) and want the best for me(and you). He has proven that to me, time and time again. I would like to encourage you to stop just going through the motions and see what kind of an adventure God has for you.
This has truly been an adventure. And the ride has been like a roller coaster, up and down, round and round. The sooner I learn the lesson the sooner I can move on. I am excited to see what God has in store for me next. Hopefully, the lesson won't come in the form of another bad experience. But even if it does, I know God is with me and will get me through it all. One step at a time.
My old boss had me write out an affirmation. I had never done this before, I guess it is sort of a mission statement. This was mine:
Today is a great day and my future lies in the choices I make.
I take full responsibility for those choices.
If Satan sees an opportunity, Satan will seize that opportunity.
Therefore I refuse to give Satan the opportunity to plant seeds of doubt in my mind.
I am strong and can overcome any obstacle put before me.
With my God by my side, there is NOTHING I cannot do.
I will dream big dreams and accomplish great thing for His glory.
I will find my God given destiny and fulfill His will for my life.

God has shown me that with Him by my side, I can overcome any obstacle. So now on to the fun stuff, dreaming big dreams and accomplishing great things for His glory. I wish everyone who reads this the very best. I hope you get the chance to experience God the way that I have.